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Thursday, June 15, 2017

My life with an "incurable" disease

Medicine says I have an incurable disease. I have been living with it for 17 years. I will be 67 in two months. I am also told I can live well with both of my conditions. I have, but not without them creating interesting issues in my approach to life.

I have "atherosclerosis" a heart problem associated with but different from ateriosclerosis. This means my heart muscle and veins are still supple and my heart pumps close to that of a healthy adult my age. This problem followed the diagnosis of adult onset Type II diabetes. As a diabetic I am a fairly conscientious one, my AIC has always stayed just above the diagnosis number. But a genetic issue in my bloodline created a problem that led to the second disease.

In any normal heart a complex system of vein and artery care and repair always goes on in our circulatory system. Any inflammation is repaired by this system. Diabetes keeps inflammation high due to the nature of sugar having sharp edges as it stays too long in our system. The repairs build up and close the walls of the arteries with blockages called plaque.

Tuesday I went through the tenth angiogram, the first three after heart attacks and the last seven after finding oxygenation problems during yearly stress tests. Each time they have ballooned, or stented the affecting clog. I now have 19 of those little suckers. I get a poke in my groin, an hour on the table with a talented cardiologist and his team, a night flat on my back, several days of rest, and a new lease on life.

I return to work and living each day with the need for exercise, healthy food choices, and reducing stress as much as possible.

Each time this happens I face the possibility of bypass surgery...the final frontier of heart disease, and live with the possibility of a plaque collapse heart attack, and a sudden goodbye to this life. Now with 10 of these under my belt and 50 years of learning to live and walk by faith in God I am largely relaxed with the future, and the possibility I may leave earlier and faster than I wish or hope.

I live with my Charismatic friends wondering why that last sincere laying on of hands prayer did not work, and with my beloved who believes if I were a lot less thick around the middle this thing would go away, and my reading into all things metaphysical that tells me I might be able to think and meditate a healing modality, and my hope that if I make it to that bypass table, I will get ten more years, which ought to be long enough to leave thankful and with a longer check list on my personal bucket list.

Oddly, the best thing about living with heart disease is how easy and enjoyable it is to cherish the moment, and life fully in it.  And I will leave you with that, cherish the moments you have to life, love and experience it all. Believe that the end of this life is the entrance into a different but more amazing life....O, and watch your carbs, they turn to sugar!!!

8 comments:

Barbara Blanchard said...

Don, I think you have reached the same conclusions I have. At our age it is a blessing to recognize each and every gift of life, to seize every opportunity for it in its full abundance, and to be at peace about what is to come. I joke that, through medical science, we have lived well and beyond our expiration dates! To live in thanksgiving and with unbounded love is our very best offering in return for this gift. Welcome to the Second Half of Life, as Richard Rohr says! It's a beautiful thing! Love and peace to you, my friend!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing with us how things are with you. Bud and I are gratefully enjoying good health and being in the Northwest for the next few months. Beginning a class next week at church on Christ in the Old Testament which we're looking forward to. Our Sr. Pastor is on sabbatical for the summer but our Assoc. who is a Texan is very good also. Going through Daniel and did Chapter 5 last week which was not an easy one to relate to our culture today not interested in judgement. Our Sr. Pastor dislocated his knee last night playing with his kids in the yard so pray that he can walk his daughter down the aisle this weekend-- his name is Eric.
Our best,
Eden and Bud

Dena said...

Thank you for sharing a snap-shot of your life-challenges, Don. Mine are different, but I recognize both courage and trust.

I've come to real-eyes that life is a sexually-transmuted, fatal condition. With blessings and butt-kickers, (& plot twists!) galore!

I SO *get* the whole "how come the healing-thingie didn't do the healing?!?" dilemma. Damn, but that one is tough to hold.

I'll share with you my own personal "tool" when I start to believe my own thoughts: "Ahhh, I have the *assumption* that I have an incurable disease ... what ELSE is possible?"

The trick is to catch the assumption ... but not to answer that question with the mind ... let Life show it to you.

Here's to the unfathomed possibilities!

Much love -
Dena Lynn <3



MAFDAV said...

Well keep pressing on friend and we'll cherish any moments we can borrow from you.

KC Bob said...

Thanks for sharing Don. Thankful for the way that God uses docs. -Blessings, Bob

Andrew Moore said...

I have been suffering from (HERPES) disease for the last four years and had constant pain, especially in my knees. During the first year,I had faith in God that i would be healed someday.This disease started circulate all over my body and i have been taking treatment from my doctor, few weeks ago i came on search on the internet if i could get any information concerning the prevention of this disease, on my search i saw a testimony of someone who has been healed from (Hepatitis B and Cancer) by this Man Priest Aluta and she also gave the email address of this man and advise we should contact him for any sickness that he would be of help, so i wrote to voodoosputuralspell@gmail.com telling him about my (HERPES Virus) he told me not to worry that i was going to be cured!! hmm i never believed it,, well after all the procedures and remedy given to me by this man few weeks later i started experiencing changes all over me as the Priest Aluta assured me that i have cured,after some time i went to my Dr to confirmed if i have be finally healed behold it was TRUE, So friends my advise is if you have such sickness or any other at all you can visit him on his website http://voodoospell.webs.com/

Cathy said...

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ancientspiritspellcast@yahoo.com or ancientspiritspellcast@gmail.com

Website https://ancientspiritspellcast1.wordpress.com

WhatsApp +2347059715465

Cathy said...

My names is Cathy i want to testify about the great spell caster called Priest Ade my husband and i have been married for 5 years now we don't have a child and the doctor told us i can't give birth because my womb have been damaged due to wrong drugs prescription this got me so worried and my husband was not happy so he decided to get married to another girl and divorce me i was so sad i told my friend about it she told me about a powerful spell caster she gave me his email address well i never believe in it that much though i just decided to give him a try and he told me it will take 24hrs to get my husband back to me and i will get pregnant i doubted him the 3rd day my husband came back to me and was crying he said he didn't want the divorce anymore 3 weeks after the doctor confirmed that i was pregnant he can also help you contact him at

ancientspiritspellcast@yahoo.com or ancientspiritspellcast@gmail.com

Website https://ancientspiritspellcast1.wordpress.com

WhatsApp +2347059715465